Pain…

I’ve read the quote “pain changes people” and have always related it to physical pain, in my mind. But really, pain really does change people…. Be it physical, emotional, spiritual or mental. As I experience each of these the last few weeks, some more intense than others. I began to understand why it changes people. My constant prayer has been “Father make be better and not bitter. Acknowledging the bitter is so much easier to receive. In dealing with this my fight and empathy for others has been magnified, yet my ability to deal with people’s petty bullshit has became unbearable and my ability to be kind is so not there! Again, my constant prayer has been “Father. Better not bitter”. I’m learning how much I truly can bear, I’m learning my realities are real. I’ve learned that oh my gosh I have to fight. I’ve learn that pain changes my ability to ever believe this was possible to endure, yet I’m dealing best I can. I gain knowledge of depression on a different level, I acknowledge suicide on a different level, I’ve acknowledged giving up on a different level. Each of these school has taught me what the diagnosis, signs and symptoms. The effects and what to look for to diagnose but my understanding first hand exceeds my education of what pain does to the human brain. Pain changes people. Sometimes bitter, other times better and sometimes both. ❤🙏