Our reintroduction was August 9th 2019, I remember it as if it was yesterday. There have been days that evening consume my thoughts. The interesting thing is, not many things consume my thoughts.
I was sitting in Wrightsville Beach waters, enjoying the waves, engulfed by the water as if I was the only one there. My dress was drenched and I felt as I did not have a care in the world. I remember moments before hearing your voice, the sounds of laughter coming from my belly as I snapped images of life. I felt mesmerized. I remember the feeling of being high as if I was in another world. I heard you say “would you like me to take your pictures for you.” as if you were repeating yourself. I also remember saying “nah, I’m good.” nonchalantly, as I never left where I was, not noticing your response or your position. I only knew where I was, I wanted to stay. An hour or so, I walked back to shore, no shoes, feeling heavy for the weight of my dress was now dragging the sand with it. I sat down and enjoyed the peace. The atmosphere, the slight breeze. I was surrounded by angels. I knew they were around me. Laying back with my head in the sand, you broke the silence and my thoughts with your cough, hence, it did not startle me. yet, it brought me back to reality. I was still sitting on the beach at 1:42 am, alone in an unfamiliar place. I remember looking at my phone for the time. And I was looking up, our eyes met. The look of familiarity and I looked again, uncertain that I was seeing who I saw. I said twice, what? Are you serious? We sat there 5.5 hours conversing about life, where you’ve been, where I’ve been, Where we are. The time felt like 20 minutes. It was daylight. We watched the sunrise. My mind was taking it all in. There are days, my mind is still “taking it all in”……. Our last 10 minutes of conversation was me telling you how amazing it was to see you again, with the understanding the timing was not right. You agreed to disagree and reminded me of “fate,”as you call it. “Serendipity” and I voiced understanding, reminding you that if we were “meant to be,” we would run into each other again…..bringing us to October 12, 2019. I am reminded of where I was, not wanting to leave. Knowing I had to go until next time. I remember thinking what I’d spoken in August. Until, next time…….During the times in between. I have appreciated you for being who you’ve always been, patient, loving and kind. My prayers for you have been that you are healing as I am. Never wanting to get in the way of that process and remembering until next time….. Grow is intentional.
SheBringsLife 